oh, hey tumblr.

did you miss me?

dude, i so do.

i miss all of my fucking earrings.
i miss my cupcake necklace.
i miss my pikachu shirt.
i miss gaging my ears bigger.
i miss getting tattoos just cause i feel like it.
i miss piercing myself when i get bored.
i miss putting on makeup every day.
i miss taking “default pics” when i looked cute.
i miss dying my hair different colors every other week.
i miss wearing millions of bracelets all the time.
i miss dressing in purposely unmatching clothes.
i miss shopping at justice.
i miss wearing that pink tutu & my faery wings.
i miss wearing my itg shoes that were just flats.
i miss playing itg even if i only could pass 10s.
i miss pacifier necklaces and hemp.
i miss the champ.
i miss walking outside all night long.
i miss kandi making parties at midnight.
i miss chinese food at midnight.
i miss acting stupid in the mall.
i miss how hot topic used to be.
i miss hair dye parties.
i miss the skating rink.
i miss getting my nails done.
i miss not caring about school.
i miss being a teenager.
i miss old shandi.
i really miss all of my fucking earrings.

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i don’t really know who i am anymore.
i don’t know what i’m doing or what i want.
i know that i want to have this baby, and marry john.
that is the only thing i’m sure of anymore.

i don’t know if i can be a nurse.
i don’t know if i can be anything.
i don’t know what i can do.
i don’t know what i will do.
i don’t know how i’ll do it.

i don’t really know who i am anymore.

i like that our first date really was sitting by the water. and i like that i still remember when you put your arm around me for the first time. i like that i remember the night years ago when we walked across the bridge and saw all the city lights on the water and i knew that there was nowhere in the world that i’d rather be. i like that every fight we’ve ever gotten in has been resolved because we belong together and we love eachother so much. i like how even now when i look at you, i still feel the way i felt back then, only more.

i like that you really are the best thing that’s ever been mine.

want.